The Internet Has Peered Into My Soul
I was surfing an interesting blog this morning that made several referrences to a "mood analysis test" called Colorgenics. The test is quite simple: you are presented with eight different colors and select them "in order of your preference." I don't understand how such a simple exercise can provide you with an accurate analysis of your current mindset, but it does...at least it did for me this morning.
Those who read this blog know that I don't often use it to talk about myself...at least not my innerthoughts and feelings. There has actually been a lot going on inside my head these last couple months, some of it realted to situations I'm going through, some of it related to my relationships with people, some of it just internal, and I do feel a fair amount of pressure and anxiety. Often I want to blog about some of the things I'm feeling to relieve my stress, but it's hard to find the right words and I remain uncomfortable about bearing too much of my soul in such a public forum. Today I will simply let my Colorgenics test results do the talking:
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
The way things are you are under considerable stress and you feel that there is little hope of matters righting themselves. Everyone about you seems to aggravate the problem even more. You feel that at this time you need to be alone and you are right - move back and give yourself a chance to breathe.
You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realize that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.
Take the Colorgenics Test
posted by Mitch Glaser @ 12:07 PM
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7 Comments:
Mitch, you should cheer up! I think you have a cool job, and you leave the best comments on my blog! You rock, Mitch.
I took the test, here is what it said:
You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favorable impressions and to be recognized by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavors go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.
You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.
You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realizing your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.
You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong
You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.
That was a long comment, yeah?
I guess it is pretty accurate, although I don't know if I like some of it...
Thanks, Marrie...I've tried to avoid using P.U. as a platform to exhibit negativity or self-pity. I have a lot to be thankful for. From what I can gleam from your Meanderings, Colorgenics pegged you pretty well. I didn't like some of what my test results said either, largely because it rang true. Let's just remember than no Web Site can tell you who you are.
Me too, Mitch. On one hand I want to write about things going on in my life, on the other, I don't want to write things that will bring people down. I'd like to be a more positive influence, however small that influence might be. I believe that every choice we make affects the world, and what we write on our blogs affects the world some way too. I sometimes write about things that have me down, but then I try to balance it with a more positive post the next time. It is true, no website can tell anyone who they are, and anyway, it is supposed to tell us our mood, not who we are.
Mine was so accurate that it scared me. I'm not proud of paragraph 3, but I can accept it, even if it makes me mad.
Steven, at least you aren't "very demanding and particular in your choice of partners" No wonder I don't have many friends!
I don't think it really matters what the test says, although it could matter in that it could be a catalyst for change, if it drew attention to something that you didn't like about yourself.
I don't think it told me anything that I didn't already know though.
Mitch, look how powerful your blog makes you, we are all sitting around taking computer mood tests because you wrote about it on your blog!
I just had to hop on this Colorgenics bandwagon and give it a whirl. My results have me nailed...freaky... I wonder who wrote that program and what logic s/he put behind it??
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